The Potion Of Life – Nothing Happens Until Something Moves

…The fact that you are graduating from Harvard suggests that you are not very well-acquainted with failure. You might be driven by a fear of failure quite as much as a desire for success.

I think it fair to say that by any conventional measure, a mere seven years after my graduation day, I had failed on an epic scale. An exceptionally short-lived marriage had imploded, and I was jobless, a lone parent, and as poor as it is possible to be in modern Britain, without being homeless. The fears that my parents had had for me, and that I had had for myself, had both come to pass, and by every usual standard, I was the biggest failure I knew.

Now, I am not going to stand here and tell you that failure is fun. That period of my life was a dark one, and I had no idea that there was going to be what the press has since represented as a kind of fairy tale resolution. I had no idea then how far the tunnel extended, and for a long time, any light at the end of it was a hope rather than a reality.

So why do I talk about the benefits of failure? Simply because failure meant a stripping away of the inessential. I stopped pretending to myself that I was anything other than what I was, and began to direct all my energy into finishing the only work that mattered to me. Had I really succeeded at anything else, I might never have found the determination to succeed in the one arena I believed I truly belonged. I was set free, because my greatest fear had been realized, and I was still alive, and I still had a daughter whom I adored, and I had an old typewriter and a big idea. And so rock bottom became the solid foundation on which I rebuilt my life…

(Excerpts from Commencement Address by J.K. ROWLING, author of the best-selling Harry Potter book series, “The Fringe Benefits of Failure, and the Importance of Imagination,” at the Annual Meeting of the Harvard Alumni Association)

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According to Kabbala the essence of life is based on Rutzo and Shuv, which translates into “To and fro” (literally, “Running and returning”). The latter refers to a rhythmic motion that permeates man’s entire being; physically, emotionally and spiritually, i.e., one’s service of the Almighty.

The Rutzo and Shuv phenomenon is not confined to the human experience alone. It is actually far broader in scope,  it is in fact ubiquitous; an essential law of physics that applies to every facet of creation – whether it be electricity, which is current; a flow of electric charge, or sound, which is basically vibration – all energy, somehow on some scale, involves rhythmic motion. To use thermal energy (heat) as an example, it involves the motion of individual atoms and molecules.

Nuclear energy, likewise, involves the motion of subatomic particles, as does chemical energy the motion of bound electrons between atoms, and electromagnetic energy (including light) the motion of photons. Electrical energy, by its very definition, involves the motion of free electrons, as does acoustic energy (sound) the periodic motion of air molecules as waves pass through them.

Nor is it just energy that is rhythmic rather than static, fluctuation is at the root of actual matter, since matter consists of molecules which are always moving; they bounce off of each other like the ball in a pinball machine. This, I’m told, (not that I really understand it) is because they consist of two or more atoms with all kinds of internal, dynamical “Vibrations,” thermally induced or otherwise inherently present. This arrangement causes a constant, quasi-cyclic natural shifting of molecular position with respect to the immediate environment. Accordingly matter is the very product of rhythmic motion.

In the human arena, the idea of Rutzo and Shuv begins on the biological level, with the rhythm of the physical heart and lungs. The heart muscle pumps blood throughout the blood vessels by repeated rhythmic contractions, the lungs must continuously inhale and exhale. The heart’s beats and lung’s fluctuations are what keep us alive.

As stated above, the human pulsation phenomenon is not limited to our physical state. It is rather present within our emotional state as well.

To use the attribute of love as an example, the emotion of love consists of a continuous rhythmic interplay between the selfless desire to give and unite with the other and the selfish satisfaction that one derives from doing so, which is the primary motivation of giving in the first place.

It is, parenthetically, for the very same reason that Rutzo and Shuv exist on the cosmic level, why every element and fiber of creation – constantly being brought into existence by G-d – is permeated with an inner pulsating energy.

It is so the case because, metaphorically speaking, the very motivation and impetus for His creation of the universe is a desire to bestow kindness upon His creations, which are (at least from their perspective) outside and independent of Himself. Given the above, it is no wonder that this quality is imbued in every facet of the product – creation. This pulsating Divine energy, when properly analyzed, can explain a lot of life’s mysteries.

Getting back to the human side of things, it is needless to say that the aforestated inherent rhythmic fluctuations are a prominent reality within our spiritual dimension. It is why when yearning to escape our corporeal existence we are inevitably driven back by the sobering fact of our material dimension. Our “Run” towards spirituality, is met with a “Return” to the lower reality.

Not unlike a flickering flame striving to pull itself away from its base, only to be drawn back down by its material wick and oil, our drive to rise above the material trappings; our yearning to transcend and become unified with our source, is met with a draw of return to earth – a rhythmic flash of inevitable self awareness and self benefit. To use the Chassidic vernacular, we feel the “Self” that “Wants.”

The point is rather clear:  life, on all levels, consists of a constant tug-and-pull, between emanation and withdrawal, surge and resistance, positive and negative, kindness and restriction, pleasure and pain, harmony and adversity, etc. This to-and-fro is not just a byproduct of life it is the source and cause of life, much as there can be no electrical energy without the motion of free electrons.

In the above light, we can have a glimpse into the elusive Chok (statue) which is the theme of our Parsha, Chukas: the purifying formula made from the ashes of a red heifer mixed with water.

Our Parsha begins by declaring “Zos Chukas Ha-Torah”– these are the statutes of the Torah. Instead of delving straight into the laws of the red heifer, the Torah pauses to apprise us of the fact that the following laws are the statutes of (all) the Torah. Only then does the Torah actually enumerate the laws of the Parah Adumah (red heifer). This brief introduction establishes the general notion of Chok as an important dimension of Torah observance and study. Depicting the Torah as a repository of Chukim – statutes, dramatically expands the theme.

Rashi cites the remarks of the Talmud (Yoma) and Midrash that one is not permitted to ponder the validity of Chukim. The commentaries note that Parah Adumah is the quintessential Chok since the very process that purges the ritual impurity also triggers another’s impurity. Accepting this mystery with equanimity constitutes an impressive act of faith and commitment.

Leading Rabbis and codifiers debate whether or not one should seek to understand any part of a Chok that may lend itself to explanation. R. Yehudah Ha-Levi (Sefer ha-Kuzari) argues that one should ideally accept the Chok on faith, without even attempting to fathom its purpose. This approach again accentuates the importance of submission in the service of the Almighty.

On the other hand, the Rambam (laws of Meilah) and Ramban (Chukas and the laws of Kan Tzippor, Devarim 22:6) strongly advocate that one should try to penetrate the mystery of the Chok. Even the most irrational decree has its rational elements that can be analyzed by the human mind and derive a lesson in life, as Maimonides states: “Although all the Chukim of the Torah are supra-rational decrees… it is fitting to contemplate them, and whatever can be explained, should be explained. However, this effort should be rooted in the principle of faith and surrender as well.

This is to say that the obligation to strive to comprehend the Chok does not primarily reflect man’s intellectual sovereignty; it is instead a testament to man’s awareness that even his intellect has to be shaped and refined by Torah. The pursuit of fathoming the Chok should be perceived as the ultimate act of intellectual-spiritual surrender and submission.

Chassidic philosophy actually maintains that every Mitzvah is in essence a supra-rational Chok, and at the same time, every Mitzvah is also a comprehensible Mishpat (logical law or Judgment). The Rambam writes that the Mitzvah to blow Shofar is a Chok. It is a rule without an apparent reason. We blow the Shofar because G-d told us to. Still, the Rambam writes that there is an important message in the Shofar: It is a wakeup call, telling us to repent.

The Rambam seems to be saying that there are two levels to every Mitzvah: There is the Chok – the fact that we do it just because G-d said so and then there is the reason that we can relate to, that talks to us, and that we can comprehend.

Listening to ones parents is another example. It is also called a Chok and a Mishpat: Usually listening to our parents makes logical sense: we owe them and they are older and wiser than us. Other times, we just shrug our shoulders in bewilderment and listen anyway. In this way, honoring parents is both a Chok and a Mishpat: logical, but not totally within our comprehension.

G-d created the human mind and the logic by which it operates. Obviously, then, it would be nothing less than ridiculous to assume that G-d desires something because it is logical. Rather, the reverse is true: something is logical because G-d desires it. In other words, the reason the commandment “Do not kill” is logical to us is that G-d desired a world in which life is sacred, and molded our minds in accordance with His vision of reality.

The Chok then challenges us to penetrate the inner logic of Torah as we set aside popular and pragmatic modes of conventional thinking. Thus, Torah study is the most powerful method of Divine service.

The above having been said, let us return to the lesson that we can take away from the Para Adumah; the ultimate Chok, which is fundamental to life and in some way represents the entire Torah.

The laws of the Parah Aduma dictate that if a person becomes impure by coming in contact with a corpse, the most serious level of impurity, the only way for him to become pure again is to find a pure red heifer, slaughter it and burn it, mix its ashes with water and sprinkle them over a period of seven days. After seven days, the person who is sprinkled becomes pure.

The red heifer formula exhibits the combination of Rutzo and Shuv. First the cow is completely burned, representing the passionate ascendency of Rutzo, but then its ashes are used to make sprinkling-water, resembling Shuv since water flows downwards until it settles in a flat place.

The lesson that is couched herein is that the remedy for a person who has come in contact with death – whose life smacks with a lack of living energy, because of a broken spirit, due to life’s challenges and burdens; due to what seems like overwhelming Shuv, an inexplicable descent – is the cleansing formula of the Parah Aduma, the fact that life consists of both fire and water.

The person who has comes in contact with spiritual or emotional death must understand the dynamic tension between Rutzo and Shuv. He must understand that Shuv-descent is a must, but only because of the rhythmic pulsation inherent in life; the rhythmic pulsation that is the root of life. He must know that every Shuv is a preparation for the next Rutzo and that the greater the Shuv, the greater is the ensuing Rutzo.  Most importantly he must take to heart that just like the Shuv is inevitable so too is the Rutzo because they are both part of the DNA with which the world is imbued.

Let us take the lessons of the Parsha to heart, especially those of the Parah Adumah which is  referred to as the statutes of the (whole) Torah, by doing so we will become purified and reenergized with new life and hasten thereby the coming of the righteous Moshiach BBA.